When hollowness creeps up on you in a sure steady pace and you're up against the wall of your skull knowing there is no way out and it is going to get you somehow, panic and frenzy ensues. Low of lows, emptiness flows through the chambers of your heart like liquid nitrogen; freezing the warmth of your blood that's been gushing through you with life. You recognize this experience of being down in the gutters of bleakness. You want to purge it out but it remains within your rectum like dehydrated stool in what seems to be the most glorious form of constipation. Enema falls short of being effective as it only manages to soften the outermost surf
A decaying soul,
A hollow mind,
Body gone cold,
Eyes gone blind,
Catatonic.
Catatonic.
Catatonic.
Greasy matted hair,
Lungs devoid of air,
Skin drenched in sweat,
Sour smelling sweat.
I thirst,
I hunger,
I lust for death.
GrymmRipper :]
My name is Kismet.
Life on autopilot,
Predetermined choices,
And fictional freedom.
With a voice that bears no gravity,
And a body that bears no weight.
The sky is out of reach,
And the Earth?
No, I am not grounded.
I dwell in a subconscious limbo.
Constantly arriving,
At points of diversion.
On a bifurcated trail,
I turned left.
For a left is a left,
And a right is a left.
Beyond the split,
I depart,
Yet again, only to arrive,
At another divide,
I turned right.
For a right is a right,
And a left is a right.
My name is Kismet,
And my life is on autopilot.
Morals and ethics,
Doctrines of religion,
Schools of philosophy,
Abandoning one,
An
Rooted in the womb of vision,
The matrix defines perception.
Bonded by blood to the life force.
If we were to sever the umbilical cord to Maya,
All that will be left are ghost shells.
When hollowness creeps up on you in a sure steady pace and you're up against the wall of your skull knowing there is no way out and it is going to get you somehow, panic and frenzy ensues. Low of lows, emptiness flows through the chambers of your heart like liquid nitrogen; freezing the warmth of your blood that's been gushing through you with life. You recognize this experience of being down in the gutters of bleakness. You want to purge it out but it remains within your rectum like dehydrated stool in what seems to be the most glorious form of constipation. Enema falls short of being effective as it only manages to soften the outermost surf
A decaying soul,
A hollow mind,
Body gone cold,
Eyes gone blind,
Catatonic.
Catatonic.
Catatonic.
Greasy matted hair,
Lungs devoid of air,
Skin drenched in sweat,
Sour smelling sweat.
I thirst,
I hunger,
I lust for death.
GrymmRipper :]
My name is Kismet.
Life on autopilot,
Predetermined choices,
And fictional freedom.
With a voice that bears no gravity,
And a body that bears no weight.
The sky is out of reach,
And the Earth?
No, I am not grounded.
I dwell in a subconscious limbo.
Constantly arriving,
At points of diversion.
On a bifurcated trail,
I turned left.
For a left is a left,
And a right is a left.
Beyond the split,
I depart,
Yet again, only to arrive,
At another divide,
I turned right.
For a right is a right,
And a left is a right.
My name is Kismet,
And my life is on autopilot.
Morals and ethics,
Doctrines of religion,
Schools of philosophy,
Abandoning one,
An
Rooted in the womb of vision,
The matrix defines perception.
Bonded by blood to the life force.
If we were to sever the umbilical cord to Maya,
All that will be left are ghost shells.
I'm a thought junkie in search of a raison d'être. Whilst trying to experience life, deep within the depths of my consciousness, I somehow yearn for non-existence. Anything of the enigmatic or fringe sort appeals to me and the fluctuation of my disposition can give you quite a whiplash. A closet nihilist. A Bookworm. Enough said.
Favourite Movies
Waking Life, Himizu
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Opeth
Favourite Books
A Short History of Decay.
Favourite Writers
E.M Cioran
Other Interests
Reading, Hoarding books , Talking and Drinking coffee. Procrastination. (I am such a procrastinator that I do think it just might be an interest of mine. =_=').
Work, work and more work. I have not really found the time to write within my new routine.
Work is fun but tiring, wish there was 48 hours in a day. Whatever it is I will make sure I squeeze in some time to at least post one good entry on Deviant before January ends. That reminds me, Happy New Year Everybody! Actually it is pretty much the same old shitty cycle starting all over again. I will still be the same piece of shit I was last year ( http://9gag.com/gag/6226173) Hahahaha. No resolutions were made because I know I'll never fulfill them; making a list is just a waste of time and energy. So far my 2013 is going okay, do leave a comment
The creations of the mind — and the principles which preside over them — follow the fate of our moods, of our age, of our fevers, and our disappointments. We call into question everything we once loved, and are always right and always wrong; for everything is valid — and nothing has any importance. I smile: a world is born; I frown: it vanishes, and another appears. No opinion, no system, no belief fails to be correct and at the same time absurd, depending on whether we adhere to it or detach ourselves from it.
E. M. Cioran
~ A Short History of Decay, p.151~
"Change" is a constant companion of mine.
The fluctuation of my disposition has begun to exhaust me, nothing is of permanence.
For once, I hope there is something that would stay unchanged, something to fallback on, something that would stay the same and would be recognizable to me till the end of my time in this plane of existence.